soooo i'm hardly ever on here anymore. i cut tons of stencils, sprayed them, took pictures...then lost my camera before i got a chance to post them. then i got a job and priorities happened. i moved twice, and at some point lost all my stencils and ridiculous amount of paint i had collected. i started drawing for a while...tattoo flash mostly...and that was fun. then i stopped for a while. then i got back into and drew two badass pieces i'll probably never post on here. just recently, i've started cutting stencils again, but have yet to spray them.

being an adult sucks. i'm adjusting to the whole wife and kids thing, but it's not easy. i love helen, joseph, and alexis to the ends of the earth, but sometimes i feel like i just...can't breathe. and the fact that i'm constantly in pain doesn't help either. i went to get some xrays today, and i go back on wednesday to see the doctor.

i get paid on friday...and hopefully i can spare a little coin for paint. i had a bunch of money saved up, more money then i've ever saved in my entire working life, and i had to get my car fixed. it was aaaaaalllllll gone. now i'm stressing about money cause helen, the kids, and i, all got sick last week, and we had to take a couple days off. and next month is the kids birthdays, so there's money spent on parties, and then i'm going into the studio with OWF, so i have to take more time off.

anyway, long story short, adulthood sucks. and i'm really really really going to make an effort to get some creative work done. i've noticed that if i draw or paint a lot, my guitar playing is better. and i have to make this band thing work. i have to. cause if it doesn't...well, i dunno. i don't know how much longer i can keep up with this 9-5 (well, techniclly, 3-11, but whatever) stuff. i'm not that kind of guy. but it's paying the bills right now, so i guess i shouldn't complain.

i'm rambling. and i don't know why exactly i chose to do it here. probably because no one will read it here.